Alchemy

Why not?

The biggest question in my book right now. But its not what you think. It is a question to everything, but it is only 1 thing really, which is not a question, but something else rather. 1 thing comprised of a million things, just like you and me. So it is a person? Well, that is true, yes. But it is not just a person. It is not just anything. It is everything. It is the one thing that really matters. The one that is everywhere. I believe that. But is it one? Or is it two? Or three, or four, or a million for that matter? Or more? Or is it one, unified, flowing? Mixed, synced how I like it? Oh, that does drive me towards insanity. A mind can only take so much. Too much knowledge and one will lose it all. Maybe our capacity isn't what we thought. Our capacity for love might be endless, as I thought. Or it might be nothing at all. But either way, our capacity for information is different. As for emotion. Cry, scream, bleed; we have to let it out somehow. Laugh too. And talk - gossip, lie, spill a secret. (The gun isn't an expression of emotion... only the energy we exert in pressing the trigger.) We are only human. There is only so much we can take. There is only one life we can have, because two or more would kill us (our souls I mean). Or maybe that is just me. Or anyone else who happens to accept their humanity rather than trying to mask it, or pretend that it is more than it is.
The problem is, you are gone. But not really, you don't have to be. (But neither did she.) Well it is all choices.
It is all questions.
It is all connected.
Why not?