so

im so drained.
i cant imagine coming back to this place.

i so hate trying to be everything to everyone
and im so worn out of never being good enough for anyone.

i'm so tired of who i am,
and so sick of everyone else.

speaking of sick, i remember what i did last xmas break
laid in bed, sick the whole time.
i almost wish that would happen again.


there are some times when i think i would do better if i was just put away. then no one would expect anything of me, except to be crazy and useless like i feel i already am.

other times i wish i were a whale.
or a cat.