.

i feel broken

tired

disgusting.


yea. i am disgusting myself, with my inability, my inconsistency.
i un-think, over-think, rethink.


i only know so much. okay?
i only know that i love you.
and i only know myself well enough to know something.
i don't know exactly what that something is. but i tell you what i do know, even though there are no actual words to express it.

i hate myself for causing you any pain. it makes me want to disappear.




gah, i am just so tired.
i'm falling apart.